Al Qishthiyanna that’s my name. In the past when anyone used to hear that name they always thought about an ugly girl with a fat body, dark skin, personality closed and geeky appearance. Yeah, because that was me, a few years ago.
I used to lack confidence, I always used to think that I am just a supporting character in this life i.e. I am not important for anyone so nobody would bother even if I die. Everyday I just used to sit in the bleachers while watching other people enjoying their lives and I used to lost myself into deep day dreaming that someday I will become a main character in this life and will live a happy life like other people but then I used to thought that dreams are just dreams, they can not become reality.
Majority of people claim that they fall in love with someone who will have a beautiful heart. But I think that’s all a nonsense why? Because I used to love someone but he left me because I was not beautiful and ugly. It doesn’t just happen for once as I’m not only unlucky with love but with many other things in my life as well for example: I really love to sing, I am a trained singer but people used to make fun of me; they used to laugh at me because I was not beautiful; I was extremely overweight having ugly looks so I was nobody’s priority. So I always used to ask several questions from myself that why people bully me and hate me just because I am not good looking? Why they look at me like they will kill me? Why they don’t like me? Why? Every night I used to think about this while crying alone.
At night I used to take a lot of medicines in order to overcome my inferiority complex and to restrict the overthinking preoccupied thought process. When I used to wakeup in the morning, I used to feel so sick but as usual nobody care about me and I was still suffering the same loneliness.
Oneday being tired of overdose of medications, I finally mustered up enough courage to stand infront of the mirror and I look at myself into the mirror. I asked myself that Am I really ugly? Am I really do not deserve to get happiness? And the answer was NO!
That day I decided to change myself in a positive way, For this purpose I cut off and disappeared from my friends and family so I can have a quality time for my ownself. During that juncture, I managed and convinced myself that I am the main character of this life.
Within two years of hardwork including the tough physical workouts like gym and running, day afer day my confidence started to built slowly. When I was able to assure myself that now I’ve become a different person with full of positive energy and confident enough to face the world then I went back to my family and friends .
“NOW I AM A SINGER, PRESENTER AND PR REPRESENTATIVE IN ONE OF THE INTERNATIONAL BANK IN INDONESIA”.
NOW WHEN MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS HEAR MY NAME “AL QISHTHIYANNA” THEY THINK ABOUT ME AS AN INTERESTING, BEAUTIFUL, TALENTED AND CHARMING WOMAN WHO IS FULL OF CONFIDENCE.
“LIFE CHANGES WHEN YOU HAVE FIRM FAITH”